What a character holding a blue object is thinking right now.

"Okay, i've got it.  Now what?  Holy shit what have I done?  Okay, calm down - calm the fuck down.  If they find me with this i'm a dead man - well, when it all goes down i'd be wishing I was dead.  I can't leave it - and i'm too scared to take it with me.  What have I done?"